The other morning while writing my last post I had a conversation with God. Now ,of course, He didn't speak I was praying/talking about a lost loved one for well over an hour between shower, shave, and drive to work.
And let me tell you it got heated.
I am going to tell you of the gist of the thing as It was 3 days ago and I don't remember the full wording.
before I get started let me state I do not use names on here so some of you will know who I am talking about others may not but if you do read this and want to pray along with me please do, God does not need names He knows the heart.
I was writing the post called make it personal. And so I did.
I started talking to God as I was shaving about the lost loved one. By lost I mean unsaved, and this particular person I have been praying for for over 40 years.
While I was writing I had the radio turned on to Curtis Hutson/Jack Hyles Sermons and listening about the lady who woke the judge and persisted until he rose and met her need.
So While I was shaving I was talking to God and saying that I had been knocking on His door about this situation for a long time now. He has promised to hear and answer.
I talked about my book and how this individual may not read God's Word but he might just read mine and find God through there. I went on this train of thought because we have spent quite a bit of money on the 2 books to get them specifically into the hand s of one person in particular. Yes I was showing God how I sacrificed to get the Word to this person. (as if He needed me to tell Him.) I am pretentious at times.
Then I went on into the thought of the Word not returning void. If you sow you shall reap in due season.
Then I got into the "no respecter of persons" part. For surely if God honored Abraham's request to save Lot, He has to honor mine. Though Abraham was the friend of God I am a child of God therefore my request must be honored as much as Abraham's, right?
Then free will became the issue and let me tell you I was on that as well. I got into Jonah and how God gave Jonah free will, but didn't give Jonah free will. He let Jonah run but then used nature and a great fish to make him (Jonah) do what needed to be done anyway.
If God can use a fish and storms to get Jonah back on track to do His Will then He can keep knocking, Keep pushing until this person comes to Him.
Free Will is all good but God has over rode free will before by His persistence, So I was petitioning Him to do it again.
Then I got into the whole I don't want to see this person thrown into the lake of fire. I don't think I could handle that, yes I know I am being selfish but it's what I want.
I also then used the very valid argument of think of what a great testimony this conversion would have in the community! For if this man would come to you then the doors have opened to a whole new people who would see you glory and your mercy.
Now I know that in this whole episode it may not have been quite biblical, but let me tell you something when you are debating/petitioning/arguing you don't always use well thought out logic.
Those of you who have kids know exactly what I am talking about, when they come to you with reasons why they need this, that or the other.
Quite frankly, in the moment logic doesn't matter for it is the heart and the intent that matter.
God knows and some of my words and thoughts didn't quite flow out as they do when I type.
They stumble and tumble out of my mouth and He has to guess at what word that was supposed to be, because this got to be an emotional conversation that lasted almost an hour.
Now, you are going to ask me why are you telling me this?
Simple, to show people that eloquence and fine speech don't matter. Prayer, heart does.
To let others know it is ok to shout at the sky while asking/begging/pleading.
To show that we all have petitions/requests/ concerns that we agonize over.
To show that sometimes prayers are not answered in the first minutes, 1 year, or 10 years. Stick with it. Keep going.
Never give up or think it is hopeless.
I know that I didn't use scripture in this, which I always do.
But I will leave this one thought.
Whatever your most earnest desire is, pray,
don't stop.
Pray without ceasing means to stay in a constant state of.
There is a God, and He is a Good God. He will hear you. He will honor your request.
Never give up hope. Never give up asking. Never stop trying.
You don't necessarily have to be bowed down on your knees to talk to God. It is the attitude you approach with. The heart and the humility.
God loves you and will hear you.
And let me tell you it got heated.
I am going to tell you of the gist of the thing as It was 3 days ago and I don't remember the full wording.
before I get started let me state I do not use names on here so some of you will know who I am talking about others may not but if you do read this and want to pray along with me please do, God does not need names He knows the heart.
I was writing the post called make it personal. And so I did.
I started talking to God as I was shaving about the lost loved one. By lost I mean unsaved, and this particular person I have been praying for for over 40 years.
While I was writing I had the radio turned on to Curtis Hutson/Jack Hyles Sermons and listening about the lady who woke the judge and persisted until he rose and met her need.
So While I was shaving I was talking to God and saying that I had been knocking on His door about this situation for a long time now. He has promised to hear and answer.
I talked about my book and how this individual may not read God's Word but he might just read mine and find God through there. I went on this train of thought because we have spent quite a bit of money on the 2 books to get them specifically into the hand s of one person in particular. Yes I was showing God how I sacrificed to get the Word to this person. (as if He needed me to tell Him.) I am pretentious at times.
Then I went on into the thought of the Word not returning void. If you sow you shall reap in due season.
Then I got into the "no respecter of persons" part. For surely if God honored Abraham's request to save Lot, He has to honor mine. Though Abraham was the friend of God I am a child of God therefore my request must be honored as much as Abraham's, right?
Then free will became the issue and let me tell you I was on that as well. I got into Jonah and how God gave Jonah free will, but didn't give Jonah free will. He let Jonah run but then used nature and a great fish to make him (Jonah) do what needed to be done anyway.
If God can use a fish and storms to get Jonah back on track to do His Will then He can keep knocking, Keep pushing until this person comes to Him.
Free Will is all good but God has over rode free will before by His persistence, So I was petitioning Him to do it again.
Then I got into the whole I don't want to see this person thrown into the lake of fire. I don't think I could handle that, yes I know I am being selfish but it's what I want.
I also then used the very valid argument of think of what a great testimony this conversion would have in the community! For if this man would come to you then the doors have opened to a whole new people who would see you glory and your mercy.
Now I know that in this whole episode it may not have been quite biblical, but let me tell you something when you are debating/petitioning/arguing you don't always use well thought out logic.
Those of you who have kids know exactly what I am talking about, when they come to you with reasons why they need this, that or the other.
Quite frankly, in the moment logic doesn't matter for it is the heart and the intent that matter.
God knows and some of my words and thoughts didn't quite flow out as they do when I type.
They stumble and tumble out of my mouth and He has to guess at what word that was supposed to be, because this got to be an emotional conversation that lasted almost an hour.
Now, you are going to ask me why are you telling me this?
Simple, to show people that eloquence and fine speech don't matter. Prayer, heart does.
To let others know it is ok to shout at the sky while asking/begging/pleading.
To show that we all have petitions/requests/ concerns that we agonize over.
To show that sometimes prayers are not answered in the first minutes, 1 year, or 10 years. Stick with it. Keep going.
Never give up or think it is hopeless.
I know that I didn't use scripture in this, which I always do.
But I will leave this one thought.
Whatever your most earnest desire is, pray,
don't stop.
Pray without ceasing means to stay in a constant state of.
There is a God, and He is a Good God. He will hear you. He will honor your request.
Never give up hope. Never give up asking. Never stop trying.
You don't necessarily have to be bowed down on your knees to talk to God. It is the attitude you approach with. The heart and the humility.
God loves you and will hear you.
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