Embarassment

Picture this....You are in Heaven kneeling before Christ worshipping Him. God the Father and the Son and The Holy Spirit, He looks at you and sees perfection what do you see? Close your eyes and imagine the scene.......You are before Him and what is the first thought that comes into your mind?  Play it out.....Am I worthy? No. The very first thought is shame and embarrassment because i know me. I am not worthy to stand before HIM. I am unclean. All my righteousness is as filthy rags.

  I did this today...tried to imagine the setting...and then all I could ask is why? Why did HE die for me? Why did HE first love me? I know me. I know all my quirks and foibles. I know that I am unworthy of any of this.  I am feeling a bit philosophical today. I do not understand this. I don't get it. He created this world, He knew we would sin. He knew He would have to come and suffer for us. He knew all this and then He did it anyway.  He made it all and He had to die to redeem us.Why?

   I have 3 children. I would die for anyone of them no questions asked. I love them.

Yet this is an example that falls so very short of what He did. He did it knowing the world would for the most part would reject Him.  That they would turn their backs on Him repeatedly for thousands of years. Why?

  J have no answer for this one today. Just questions. I am not worthy to kneel or even be in His presence....... Even though in Acts God in a vision tells Peter that what He calls clean is clean. But I know me in and out. He can not know me the way I do. If He did He would turn His back on me. And yet knowing me He died for me anyway. Knowing me and what I would do and who I would be He did it anyway.

I know Christ as my personal saviour and yet today I find myself asking WHY....and I find I have no answer. Thank You Lord for saving my soul. Thank you Lord for making me whole. Thank You Lord for giving to me Thy great salvation so rich and free.